Oct 19, 2009
This is why I blog
I've been thinking about starting a blog for awhile. Initially, I was going to blog about the ups and downs of being a young woman in the action sports industry. I was really fed up with the way women would often be passed up for new positions or promotions so that the hiring manager's bro could get the spot instead. I mean I've watched some guys with very limited brain capacity and drive make it pretty far up in a company because of bro hiring tactics. I understand networking and getting ahead through contacts. I mean really isn't that the way most jobs are found now a days, but a foot in the door shouldn't automatically lead to your butt in a cubicle. Frankly, I don't give a flying rat's ass if these guys surf the same spot every morning, this is work, give the job to the person most deserving of it. Sorry, if I sound bitter. Right now I am, but I'll be over it soon. just have to rant for a minute.
After three years of working my butt off I've just found out that my job position has been eliminated for the second time. Yes, that's right. I've been hired, laid off, rehired, and laid off again by the same company in practically the same job just two days from exactly a year between lay offs. The thing is that I'm not sad about losing the job. It sucked and is not what I wanted to do at all. I'm just angry that I wasn't able to get anywhere while I was there. I definitely tried. I knew everyone who worked for the company, made sure all the right people knew that I was interested in moving up into their departments, and even took on an extra position for free, in a dept. I wanted to work for to try to get ahead. Instead, I got to watch about 5 guys who hadn't worked at the company at all or as long as me and/or had the same/less experience than me get jobs hand to them or even worse created for them. I was offered two different jobs throughout my stay there, but neither were positions that would lead me where I wanted to go so I turned them down. I'm glad I did too, because after having a crappy job for so long I refuse to settle for another one.
Anyway, back to why I'm blogging. After my most recent layoff I finally decided to go for it. I mean I have a lot of free time and now being housebound I crave communication or have some type of interaction with other people, even strangers. Even if no one is reading this I am still getting my thoughts and opinions out there which makes me feel better. Considering that I'm a private person by nature I struggled with what to make this blog about. I wanted to it to be a reflection of me but I didn't want it to become some sort of public diary. I'll save the embarrassing stories for my real journal, you can relax now Mom. No soiling the family name here. I decided the best way to express myself is through writing about the dirty shiny pretty. As an optimistic realist I always hope for the best/fantasy but am prepared for reality. Following along this line I have a deep love for dirty shiny pretty things, places, and people. They are a bit damaged or soiled but they still manage to shine and be oh so pretty. By focusing on my love for the Dirty Shiny Pretty life has to offer I can get down in the dirty, gleam in the shiny, and revel in the pretty that is created when the two meet, basically just be me.